There are so many things on my mind
Things that I have yet to understand
Things that keep my hopes low
This keeps me from ever being able to float freely
Soaring the inviting blue sky and not think of nothing
But everything other than what I have to
But it is hard
There is always something new to think of
Something that I do not want to think of in the first place
And it makes it even harder for me to get rid of
Everything is so stressful now
Why did it have to happen now?
Now, when it comes time for me to become responsible
And depend more on myself than others
Everyday seems more complicated and more emotional
There seems to be a never ending break for me
And I do not think that there will ever be one
But I wish there would be
Even just for one day
A day that I do not have to worry about anything
Wishfully, that day will come soon
And there will be a peace of mine, not only for me
But for everyone and everything else
But when will it come?
Neither I nor no one else knows
Perhaps it will come whenever things start to calm down
And when I start to see that I am no longer a child
But a young woman that will have to face much more
Challenging dilemmas in her future
And no one can exactly help her find ever answer to every problem
That may come her way
Eventually, she will come to see that all of those continuous stressful
Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months…year
Will be a big help in her future decisions
But now in the present, it is hard to see it that way
Because of how things are going now
Broken-hearted, nerve-racked, pressured...
What must I do to make these things go much easier?
Should I just ignore it and continue what I was doing?
Must I find out how to solve these problems and understand them?
What will happen if I do not do anything?
These questions are sometimes always on mind, even if I am not
Thinking of them
But as I go on and on about these non-stop problems,
I seem to forget about a couple of things
One of those things is that I am never alone.
I have many people I can talk to for comfort
Even if they do not seem to understand
Another is that I have a guardian angel that is always with me
Waiting for the granted permission from me
So it can help me with anything I may have troubles with
And help to get to that stress free day I have been longing to reach
And all of this madness will be over, everything on the inside that is
What goes on with the rest of the world? Not my problem.